The Dreams of a 23-years-old

I thought it might be an interesting thing to read about in 20 years, so I will write some of the things I would like to do in my life. Some of the things are very materialistic. 

As always I am dreaming about traveling. Not just dreaming, but reading about things like Work&Travel (that is not going to be affordable right now) and thinking a bit about my next Erasmus, but honestly I have no idea yet what to do after graduation and whether I will really graduate in June. But lets come back to traveling... it would be so nice to go traveling in June after ending with the thesis. To go to East would be the most perfect and most realistic. But at some point it would be very nice to go to South-America for a month and also to go to North-America for at least a month, to take pictures in New York... and to Africa at some point, but I will wait with that for a little I think. And just to relax - to go to Philippines, Hawaii... 

I consider traveling to be my short-term goal. And how to do that - figure out a way how to get money or to volunteer or through school, work abroad, cheap traveling, backpack... There are ways even without a lot of money, but the perfect thing would be to find a well-paid job, but with an opportunity to take a vacation. It is not a problem to work very tensely for the rest of the year if you can have a nice vacation traveling around in the world. 

What I have also understood, is that my education, my major, is useless. You can argue that nothing is useless, but in a sense what kind of job I can get.. it is useless. And of course, nothing is useless if you are a specialist on your field, but on a undergraduate level right now.. I have to start learning law, soon. This year even and my goal - postgraduate of International Law by 2013, by the age of 27. But right now, I am opened to everything. By the end of this year we will know much more what will happen to me.

And at some point I would love to have a wine cellar and a library in my house:) I have had the plans of my house in the head for a long time, we will see. Someday. A long-term goal, certainly not within 5 years. 

I want to learn how to cook, to get fit and obtain a certificate for teaching BodyPump, to travel, to have a nice home, to take photos, to draw and to be happy. In the summer to travel around, lay on the beach on an island. And at some point - to spend my Christmas in a cabin in the mountains, sitting next to a fireplace, drinking cocoa, decorating the Christmas tree and patting my dog. Overall - to be happy without making others unhappy and to be honest with myself and everybody else.  Haha - and to buy a lot of pretty underwear, shoes, dresses - but not too much - it would be nice to stay in touch with the reality. 

Right now - moving out, traveling, and figuring out what to do within my next year (and to get fit!). 

1. Traveling - East, North-America (The States), Philippines, Hawaii, South-America, Africa, Australia. 

2. Education - Postgraduate degree. International Law. 

3. Home, sweet home.

The problem right now is to come up with the plan how to achieve those things:)

Updeit!

Today came the first person to see the house. The good thing about this is that we have to keep the house clean now all the time. I really do hope for the best, as there is an average one year waiting time for the buyer in the market right now for a house with this profile. But I decided to have an open house on Saturday and hopefully will get some new ideas as well how to get the house sold as quickly. 

Well, I have my routine on a schedule, but I haven't been good enough yet to stick to it - but! I will do my best soon. Step by step, trying to get better day by day. One thing I have learnt in life that you cannot change everything overnight. So I will take my time and try to do the best - time to stop the depression starting and pull myself together.

And the main thing - I have been having dreams - what is probably a daily thing, but I see my dreams, wake up for a little, but then fall asleep again and when I woke up for the second time, I do not remember what I saw. But I do remember tonight. I was skydiving, with somebody, but with whom, I do not remember. I landed, but did not feel anything - no emotions about the jump... I landed and at some point joined the princess, we walked under a bridge and then met up with two of his (American) friends/relatives in a travel car, one was standing on one side of the car, other on the other. No recognition though on what were we talking about and then I woke up. The reason why it was weird is that the skydiving was included and the emotionless. 

The job search is frustrating. The most frustrating aspect is the lack of money of course, but it would be nice to have an enjoyable job. But I am getting ambitious, I haven't felt that for some time. It must be whether a very interesting job or a good salary. I do not feel like taking a boring and low-paid job. 

P.S. Found a new thing to watch (too lazy to read probably) - Hell's Kitchen

Tallinn!

 

What has happened? Almost nothing. Princess visited us in Tallinn last week, which was very nice from him. Secondly, I am still looking for a job. I found something I would really-really like, but yes, they did not like me that much:P And thirdly, I have to start with my thesis. At least I have the topic. And also we are trying to sell the house. I entered the add today. So if anybody is interested, let me know. Overall, the biggest problem is money right now. But I hope to get that solved. I have noticed some kind of ambition within me, so that is a progress. Also getting a bit paranoid from watching too much Sherlock Holmes. 

Kaimar Lahe

I found a paper that was written, by my friends to me,  on the New Years Eve 2008/2009, and this is what was written:

- don't go too far away for too long

- do not make puppies or children

- do not work out too much

- do not go to Saaremaa

- drink a lot - 3.1 should be the number where to stop

- listen to at least half of the Armin Van Buren State of Trance 2009 shows 

- learn anger management 

- at least once a month, lets have chick nights and do each other nails etc.

- lets go for a trip and lets get wasted

- stop straightening your hair, because your curls are cute

- a benji jump!

- a parachute jump and a party afterwards 

- show us some normal guy

- go camping with a tent 

- go to Õllesummer

- talk more

- go to London to see Russel and Jimmy

One of those "Career test's"

5 jobs that would suit me well

76% Finance (accounting, auditing)

72% Science and Research work

72% Banking & Insurance

72% Recruitment

71% Manufacturing, managing

5 jobs that would not suit me

48%  Banking & Insurance, leadership

47% Planning, leadership

45% Consulting

40% Advertising & Marketing

28% Top level leader

Snow and more snow

 

This is the view from our second floor window. And then is even more snow, but as I can just take PhotoBooth pictures, I haven't been able to go for a photoshoot outside. 

Yesterday was the first day when I left home to see my groundmother. The sidewalks itself are 2 and a half metre wide, but as there is a lot of snow, the path is about 50 cm wide and on one side there is a pile of snow, sometimes even 2 metres high. It is impossible to walk around with a child carrige or in a wheelchair. 

People in here must be thinking I am crazy, as I walk around with a smile on my face. I am in a stage where I notice all the details and I am comparing everything with Lisbon.

And one good thing I noticed about Tallinn, is how the bus drivers drive - in Lisbon you always had to hold on tight, they were a sort of race car drivers. The bus drivers in here seem to be more relaxed in that sense, so thank you for that. But at the same time, the transportation tickets system is messed up. If you don't have an ID card, then I do not know how you can survive in here if you are in Tallinn for a long-term stay. Even if I am an Estonian citizen, but the ID card was stolen, it was rather complicated to find out what I have to do. 

I had one bad experience today as well. I went to apply for new driver's license, as the old ones where stolen in Portugal. So she charged me with 25 EUR, even though if you have stolen drivers license, the price is 7 EUR. My fault was not knowing that at a time, as I found it out after I had already paid, but as much I have studied public administration, I also know that her job was to inform me. I told her, that the license was stolen, but she didn't say or asked about anything. But luckily I can still get my money back, even though it is going to be a waste of my and their time. 

But yes, in the end when I was getting back home, I got the lion, so it seems to be a good year. Even though I have to find a job, graduate, my things were stolen on the 7th day of this year, I had a long journey home etc. At least it wont be a boring year as it is full of changes.

And even if I am going to have a bad year, I wish you all the best!

Do it, baby

 

This is the shirt with decorations I was wearing on my last night in Lisbon. Thanks T. 

P.S. To tape your hair... is not a very smart thing to do

Welcome to Estonia

 

Good afternoon my darlings,

Something weird is going on, but it is probably because I have my first days in here. Everybody seem to be very polite, the most extreme incident was today on a bus. It is not even politeness. So this is what happened: I was on a bus, standing next to the door to get out in the next stop, and then a man, in 40s, says "girl" in Russian and gives me a stuffed lion. He had it in his plastic bag, it still had a sticker on from the store.. I was confuesed, but took it. Smiled, said thank you and went out. When I was out of the bus, waved, and called my mother (well, first I tried to call B., but she was busy) and told what had happened and how I should react - I was a bit suspicious as well, as this - at least for me - is not a regular thing, that happens every day. And now I have the lion on my bed. Thank you, stranger. 

Arrived!

I have arrived in a country that has stopped being as cold as it was.  Thank you for that.

I was picked up by the brother-sister duo, then my mother had prepared food (soup, finally!), continued with unpacking, later joined by two other friends, showed Robert and Koobalt to O., drank a cider (with alcohol! no more non-alcoholic ciders they sell in IKEA) and fell asleep. Today is a lazy day - no school (that will start tomorrow), will go through my wardrobe, if I have time I will also go through some want ads.